Youth

In the most appreciative way possible I realized on Mother's Day my humble and exciting position in life. I AM YOUNG--despite the unyeilding momentum inside that's pushing me to grow, grow, grow!--without ever stopping to enjoy my immaturity and youth.

Under Pressure anyone? Yes, the David Bowie song. It's sort of like that: there's something so appealing and catchy about that damn song. It's almost addicting. The pressure, the build up, the anxiety, the thrill, the committment to Bowie. But songs like "Peaceful Easy Feeling" by The Eagles or "I'm Yours" by Jason Mraz are so much more soothing, relaxing, and enjoyable in an authentic and wholesome way.

I want to let myself have that Peaceful Easy Feeling. I wonder, though, if I'm copping out by wanting to just RELAX and let myself be without pushing myself to become more than what's natural or authentic to who I am. It seems backwards to try to make myself grow, when so much natural growth is already occuring at this stage in my life.

Perhaps regardless of age, at some point we have to find a way to feel free inside ourselves--that youthful openness to who we are and how we interact with others. And sometimes that consists of letting go for a while.

The question is what needs letting go of?